i wear my heart on my sleeve, but i'not naive. i know what it feels like to be completely broken and i'm all too familiar with what it feels like to hurt. i know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. i've been taken advantage of and used. my feelings have been completely disregarded, but i still believe all people are good at heart, and my trust has not diminished. to be honest, i hope it never does.
sometimes it's easy to feel like you're the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. but that feelings a lie. and if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day and someone, or something, will find you and make it all okay. because we all need a little help sometimes. someone to help us hear the music in our world. to remind us that it won't always be this way. that someone is out there, and that someone will find you.
and you taught me what this feels like. and then how it feels to lose it. and you showed me who i wanted. and then who i wasn't. and you ticked every box. and then drew a line. and you weren't mine to begin with. and then not to end with. and you looked likeeverything i wanted. and then became something i hated. and you get thought of every day. and then not in a good way. and you let me leave. and then wish i'd stayed. and you almost killed me. but i didn't die.